January 2012
Hang on, help is on the way. Stay strong,...
I really hope I’m just pmsing. But part of me knows I’m not. I should be used to this kinda shit, it happens all the time.
Suddenly, I just don’t wanna be out and about today. Raniel’s house then Senior Broomball later tonight, but I’d honestly rather just stay at home.
I can’t find it in myself to believe anything anymore. I feel so out of touch.
I just want...
Maybe I’m just pmsing.
Maybe I’m just acting off of stress. Maybe I’m just overreacting. Maybe I am at fault. Maybe, maybe, maybe. Never any security.
Just because I want to believe you doesn’t mean that I can. It’s hard.
I’m so damn caught up with those little things. I feel like I’m just acting dumb.
I feel like a complete mess. But I’m trying...
Day 1 of finals ):
Choir final today, aka I have to sing in front of my class by myself. I can’t sing ); But, still singing Never Say Goodbye by Jojo, in Passion’s key. <3
I just wanna get these two days over with. Chill but nerve-wrecking day today, stressful tomorrow.. I hate school.
In dire need of $$$. With Winter Formal and Sadie’s coming up, I definitely need some. I just wanna be...
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On a more personal note...
I’d like to believe in this thing called fate, in the existence of a reason why we’re together, and whether He plans on us to go long-term or not, I’m done with hiding from my true feelings and I’m going to take a stand and embrace them and rather than living in fear, I’ll lift this up to Him and allow Him to guide us. Yes, I’m scared, but this is a risk worth taking. I’d like to...
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It’s your ability to simply speak with me that attracts me the most. Communication is one of the most essential bases to a relationship. To talk through your mouth is much different than to talk to me though your eyes, through silence, through touch. Along the way, you taught me how to speak this type of language of love in which only you and I are able to comprehend. From cliché wordplay to...
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so a certain friend of mine who shall remain...
me: .i guess i love you..i have to if im ur mistress lol
her: exactly! you can't stand the thought of me going to sadies with someone else, so you HAD to choose someone with a name similar to my date.
i don't know how that made sense in my head...
....she needs help HAHAHAAH
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23 January 2012
When things turn out better than you expected it to… A few minor setbacks but at the end of the day, everything fell into place. I got my date to Sadie’s! (;
Earning $30 this week on tutoring. AMC, you are temporarily replaced as you continue to be selfish not give me any hours. I really need $$$.
On top of that, I still can’t drive due to medication and what not. I hate it.
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Really chill and productive weekend. Found a dress for Winter Formal, took care of everything that needs to be taken care of, and have been surrounded by nothing but good company. <3
I start tutoring tomorrow! Quick and easy $$$.
La la la, I’m so excited! :3 kekeke, never gonna see it coming.
Hi, mother nature.. I’m anticipating your arrival within the next 24 hours. I already...
Some minor fall backs, but eventually it all came together. It’s worth staying up this late tonight and probably even tomorrow night, and I will until it’s perfect. Need to run a couple errands still but I’ll just watch everything fall into place. I’m freakin’ excited, kekeke. <3
Date? Check. Dress? Check. Shoes? Check. Hair and make-up? Check. Still need to...
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Mother dearest ♥
*comes in my room
Mother: Anak...? *starts walking away
Me: Yes, mom?
Mother: *yelling from her room. Can we please hang out for a couple hours?
Me: Yeah, sure.
Mother: Kasi, I miss you... *walks back in my room, grabs my pillow pet, and lies down on my bed
Me: What are you doing, mom?
Mother: I'm your mother! YOURE HANGING OUT WITH ME TODAY FOR A COUPLE HOURS. I'm getting dressed. *gets up and walks away
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There’s nothing more welcoming than a warm bed and feel-good music than when it’s raining outside. It’s as if the whole world can be so easily drowned out, and eventually, it appears so. My worries somehow find a way to melt into the ground and wash away with the rain. And I’m left with nothing but bliss, nothing but pure bliss in this kind of atmosphere. But, of course, this weather is...
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That was the only dream that ever felt so real, the only dream that clearly stands out from the rest simply because you were in it. I remember those sheets of paper, once engraved with the lyrics to the songs I used to sing, the songs I composed from scratch, the songs that found a way out of my heart and intertwined with my fingers as they played each note thoroughly, as though no other...
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“Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must outrun the fastest...”
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Current thoughts
School is so dreadful and the work is so tedious. Those two classes, the only ones I don’t have A’s in, are driving me CRAZY. And there’s AP Lit, but my grade is what it is. I’m just ready to graduate already.
My health isn’t necessarily something I worry about everyday, though it should be. I’m so sick of these medications. Loss of appetite, restricted on...
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I hate having to sneak around on weekdays...
Raniel: Hey look, it's your mom's car! *in a joking manner
Me: Omg, I thought that was my mom's car too. I was about to say...
-double take-
Me: HOLY FUCK. That's my mom! Back up, back up, back up.
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Details in the Fabric
It’s a temporary feeling to be lost in the crowd yet feel so isolated, to have your mind up in the sky without any real grip on reality. You’re at a loss of words, loss of a clear distinction between reality and dreams. Everything somehow came together as a blur and though you may find joy, you feel at a loss of identity. And it’s the kind of identity in which you just feel stuck, a...
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Shawty, all I got is a dollar and a dream. Is ya...
whossrabilyn asked: Hi(: Thanks for following me back! i love your blog!
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I’m gonna start running again and watching what I eat, for the sake of my health. I’m done just getting by ‘cause it’s really starting to affect me. I hate this.
School is kicking my ass bad. So much work to get done in a matter of two weeks, two classes away from straight A’s in which I have less than one percent to achieve. My motivation to get through finals? The...
heyyitsraniel asked: Taking a break before you even started?-__-
heyyitsraniel asked: WHY ARE YOU ON TUMBLR?-__________-
heyyitsraniel:
What I hate most is that you’re not even trying-___________-
at least I’m not as frustrated as you HAHAHAH
Scattered thoughts
I’m done with poetry journals and all, but the fact that I drank two venti iced coffees at Starbucks today… yeah, that shit gets to you. ): On the bright side, I get to webcam with my ugly boyfriend <3
Part of me feels like crap and that you should be upset, but the other part comes with the fact that I’m still so insecure. I need to let it go before it ruins me.
Cold...
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The Razonable brothers are so cute :3
Pretending to be asleep when their dad comes near the room…
“Is he gone yet?!” …. “No, not yet.”
LOL, so cute. <3
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It goes beyond what physical appearance can depict, farther than what any word or sentence itself can express. It’s simplicity at its finest, most pure form, so easily felt, yet so damn complicated to even begin to explain. It even goes beyond the cliché hugs and kisses, but lies at the base with holding hands, with looking into each others eyes, with simply being in each other’s presence,...
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*talks in a gay voice
Raniel: Would you still like me if I talked like that?
-pause-
Me and Raniel: Probably not.
heyyitsraniel asked: GET OFF TUMBLR-____-
heyyitsraniel asked: You're a loser<3
Cypress Library or Starbucks today and tomorrow for poetry journals, yay! -_- Seriously, what a waste of a three-day weekend.
Other than poetry journals, my weekend consists of two of my favorite things: Pandora and cold weather. <3
My phone officially broke and I forgot to transfer all my contacts to my SIM. Waaah ): On the bright side, my mom’s thinking about getting me a new phone!
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“I heard what you said. I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the...”
– Shana Abé
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It’s always the same fights with you, regardless of the time or place. And I have no intention of raging off nor am I fond of the idea of walking out without getting my point across. I’m done with those immature tantrums. Yes, I love you. Yes, I respect you. And I am in all ways grateful for everything you’ve provided for me and for everything you’ve done for me. I’m thankful for the roof...
“Every time I look in your eyes, can’t control my heart; I’m so high....”
– Heart Of Mine by Jason Castro
Really not diggin’ this infection… or all the antibiotics… or the side effects… or the restrictions… or anything of that matter in regards to my health. This sucks.
School is just so painful. It’s seriously kicking my ass. And I know that’s not gonna change for another couple weeks. On the bright side, Sadies is coming up :3
Saw my kuya, May, and JJ...